Peace of Mind is All I Want...

Peace of Mind is All I Want...

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Graduation day!

I can't believe it's been eleven weeks. Amazing. Absolutely amazing.

Today was quite an eventful morning. Todd and I saw our little one wiggling around and heard the heartbeat for the first time ever. I thought MY heart was going to burst through my chest. I've never felt such love. Ever. In my life. Ever.

Our baby is a smidge too small for the nuchal fold - I can't decide if I want to reschedule it for next week or not. I wonder what the latest date is that it can be done?

I met with my RE after the ultrasound. I'm graduated! She still wants me to stay on the progesterone BUT I might be able to cut back to 200mgs/day based on the blood work she ran today. I'll probably have to go in for another blood draw next week with the hope that I'll be able to cut back to 100mgs.

My next OB appt is July 19th. That'll be FOURTEEN weeks. I never thought I'd be 14 weeks pregnant. Holy cow.

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Thursday, June 21, 2007

Sweet, sweet relief

That loud sigh of relief you heard at approximately 9:30 AM was me. My baby is okay. Better then okay - my baby is PERFECT.

He/she was moving around like a maniac. His little hearting was thumping away at 167 bpm. I have never felt joy like that before. It brings me to tears when I think about it.

I have the whole thing on video and she gave me a couple of pictures as well.

As an added bonus I got a pap and a breast exam. Woot!

I go back on Wednesday for the NT screen then I see my RE on Thursday for what will hopefully be my (sniff, sniff) last appointment.

I'm on the top of the world today!

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Monday, May 28, 2007

A two part post

Part 1:

Background: H & I had some issues getting pregnant. We got our BFP after 2 years. His parents, my parents, my sister and a couple of friends (and the whole internet) have know about our troubles.

Todd's cousin & husband (and 2 year old) live in Dallas. He's kind of close with her but they've drifted apart over the years. She's one of the more superficial I've encountered - it's all about "image" with the 2 of them. Their daughter is always immaculately dressed in foofy dresses, isn't allowed to play outside, can't feed herself (she might spill!), etc. She spent more on the dress her daughter wore to our wedding then I did on my dress Their daughter is the only grandchild on that side of the family and is treated like a princess.

The 3 of them were in town visiting us over the weekend. My husband called them about a week ago to tell them our good news. At that point they fessed up about knowing about our troubles. I'm not particulary shy/reserved about talking about infertility so I was a little surprised that they never said anything but I didn't give it much thought.

They arrived on Friday and got settled, etc. Hugs, kisses, congrats, etc then we all loaded into the car to go out to dinner. Not 2 minutes after we got into the car she says to her husband "Honey, should we tell them the good news? We're pregnant too!". And she thinks she's due on the same day (she hasn't seen her OB yet to confirm anything).

I thought I was going to cry. On one hand, it's unreasonable of me to think that the rest of the world is putting their procreating plans on hold because of us. And it's not like anyone could have predicted that we'd be pregnant. But on the other hand could she have waited 24 more hours to make the announcement?

For the rest of the weekend everywhere we went she mentioned that she was pregnant to every sales clerk, restaurant server, etc. She also informed me that "Our lives were going to change so much". I'm so glad she brought that up - we jumped into this so impulsively I hadn't realized

I feel like a complete asshole for being so petty and jealous. Even my husband is a little hurt. Are we a matched pair of jackasses?

Part 2:

Today is 6w5d and we saw the baby's heartbeat this morning. I've never seen anything so amazing in all of my life. I don't have to go back to the RE for 4 more weeks! I don't think I've gone that long between visits ever. I do have to see my OB in 2 weeks. I'm sure I'll be jonesing for another ultrasound by then anyway.

My fibroid is still lurking around. I'm trying to think of it as an guardian angel for my baby. If anyone has any fibroid info to share I'd be happy to read it. I'm afraid to turn to Dr. Google.

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