Good, Bad & Ugly

Good: I have an appointment for an IVF consultation on May 10th! I'm very excited. The timing should work out so this cycle will be ending just before the appointment - I think that's a good thing! And the woman I'm supposed to call if I have any questions is named Candy. Awesome!

Bad: I feel like hell. I'm grossly bloated and it hurts to button my pants. The very last thing I feel like doing is engaging in sexy time with my husband but I know if I don't and I do see the elusive BFP this cycle I will beat myself up and be regretful.

Ugly: Our insurance company is denying payment for the last 4 IUIs. Our policy states that it will cover 6 inseminations - it never clicked in my brain that 5 cycles of back to back IUIs would result in 10 inseminations. I feel like a moron for not asking about that. Thankfully it's the insemination portion of the process that's being denied and not the meds or we'd be screwed. I'd much rather use our tax refund to replace our deck but alas.

Thank you for the lovely comments on my previous post. I appreciate each and every one of them.

The 9DPO cry-fest

I'm in a miserable mood today. My temperature was a f-ed due to the 30* weather and a stubborn husband who won't turn on the heat. 30 degrees in Austin, TX in april - that's messed up. Had the circumstances of waking up this morning been perfect I still think my temperature would have plummeted. I'm not feeling it at all.

Scrolling back through previous charts and blogs 9DPO seemss to be the day that Hope takes some PTO and leaves me along with Doubt. I really need too keep an eye on how they're scheduling their time next cycle. Hope is a hard worker and all but Doubt really pulls through at the end. Doubt is definitely reigning supreme in our hosehold today, that's for sure.

My breasts stopped hurting, my mood shifted, I'm pretty sure my temperature shifted and I don't feel as bloated as I had previously. Same symptoms for the past 6 cycles and they've all resulted in the same conclusion. Doesn't take a rocket scientist to see where this is headed.

But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe my hopes will rise again for the next few days before Doubt (and my period) come crashing down and thrusting me into even greater disappointment. Just like always.

I really need some cheering up. Thank goodness for silly dogs and chocolate covered pretzels (to be enjoyed separately).