So...I'm not pregnant

Just got back from the RE and I'm not pregnant. It wasn't a huge suprise but I was still hoping. Temp drop. days of spotting and a decrease in the thickness of my lining = on to the next cycle. They drew some blood to do a test to be sure but when you know, you know. You know?

Words can't describe how sad I am. I have to call my mom to fill her in on the appointment and I'm procrastinating because I'm afraid I'll have a breakdown on the phone. Husband is picking me up some popcorn chicken and a large Diet Coke on his was home from work.

I think I'm going to give up wine this month. I don't know if it will help but it can't hurt, right? Should I give up soda too? What will I drink? :-)