Peace of Mind is All I Want...: (yet) Another reason why IF sucks

Peace of Mind is All I Want...

Monday, June 18, 2007

(yet) Another reason why IF sucks

My breasts stopped aching over the weekend. Rather then being excited about pain-free boobs I had a miniature breakdown, certain that my baby has stopped growing. I called my doctor's afterhours line and they paged the OB on call (who I've never seen and certainly doesn't know me from a cake of soap). He suggested that I relax (grrrrr) and take it easy over the weekend and make an appointment for a sonogram this week.

So I'm going in on Thursday (I already had an appointment anyway).

I'm so angry with myself. I already had this talk (in my head) about not overreacting to changing "symptoms" and jumping to bad conclusions. Apparently it's time for a refresher.

And who knew that "relaxing" would be just as aggravating pregnant as it is when you're trying to get pregnant? Spread the word!

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15 Comments:

At 6/18/07, 8:31 AM , Blogger Kate said...

I just saw your comment at The Lushary. I hope the ultrasound goes well for you. Lots of good thoughts heading your way!

 
At 6/18/07, 8:50 AM , Blogger decemberbaby said...

Clicking over from Mel's virtual lushary.

I know your anxiety - I think I was there a week and a half ago... started to feel better around nine weeks and totally freaked. Your progesterone dropping would have freaked me out too, but if you're doing suppositories (I don't know if you are, stupid me, I should read more carefully) then they get absorbed locally and don't necessarily make it into your blood stream. At least that's what I was told.

I'm rooting for you... will check in later this week to make sure the ultrasound went well. In the meantime, enjoy the virtual bellini... I'm buying. ;-)

 
At 6/18/07, 8:50 AM , Blogger Karen said...

I'm sorry that you're feeling stressed out, but I certainly understand it. I can tell you that the boob pain thing for me comes and goes (I'm at 20-ish weeks with triplets), and even in the first trimester it would come and go without warning, so don't be too surprised if symptoms sort of unexpectedly disappear for no good reason.

Still, it sounds like the doctor handled it appropriately, though I wish he hadn't used the word "relaxed" and I do hope he had a patient tone in his voice. Good luck with the ultrasound.

 
At 6/18/07, 9:24 AM , Blogger Andria and Co. said...

good luck with the u/s... i know it is hard to feel comfortable until that 12 week mark. then, you are on pins and needles until the 23-24 week mark, when the baby is viable... then, well, i dont think the worrying ever ends.

btw- i am in austin also!

 
At 6/18/07, 9:39 AM , Blogger Samantha said...

It does seem like the worrying never really ends, doesn't it? I hope other people are right: sore boobs, no sore boobs, it won't make a difference for you.

 
At 6/18/07, 10:16 AM , Blogger serenity said...

Clicking over from Mel's Lushary today...

Be gentle with yourself - after what you've gone through to get here, you are entitled to worry.

Fingers crossed here that the u/s on Thursday goes perfectly!

 
At 6/18/07, 10:29 AM , Blogger Tina said...

Saw your comment at The Lushary as well.

Will be praying for you that this is just a scare and everything is okay. It is so hard to hope and trust at this point that things will go right. Will be praying for you that you get good news on Thursday!

 
At 6/18/07, 11:11 AM , Blogger PCOSMama said...

I also had (okay, still have) the fears with disappearing symptoms. Or if a new symptom shows up, wondering if something is wrong. It'll be so much easier when you can feel the baby move - I know that's a long wait though! Hang in there as best you can and good luck with the ultrasound!

 
At 6/18/07, 1:03 PM , Blogger Melissa said...

You have every right to feel that way but you are right - that freedom to just relax and expect good things to happen is something that IF takes away from us. Glad to hear your going in for another appointment. Are you still with your RE? Anyway, I'm praying for great results!

 
At 6/18/07, 2:14 PM , Blogger Chris said...

Just skipped over from the Lushary . . .

I have felt your anxiety and truly feel for you. My doctor would tell me frequently that at this stage in the game everything is on autopilot and there was nothing I could do about anything and that worry wouldn't help either.

Good luck to you on Thursday!

 
At 6/18/07, 11:59 PM , Blogger Caro said...

aaargh! I hate the just relax comments.

 
At 6/19/07, 11:36 AM , Blogger The Town Criers said...

Chris--I'm holding hope for you and sending you calming wishes for the next two days. If you get to a breaking point, can they have you come in for an emergency u/s before that appointment? I'm sending only good thoughts and hope this is just fluctuating symptoms.

 
At 6/19/07, 6:24 PM , Blogger FattyPants said...

I would be freaking out too. I hope the next two days go by quickly for you and that you wake up tomorrow with really sore boobs.

 
At 6/19/07, 10:48 PM , Blogger Baby Blues said...

I hear you. IF simply sucks!

 
At 6/20/07, 7:17 PM , Anonymous Karaoke Diva said...

See, I never had any of that anxiety when I was pregnant with my son, but now that I've had a miscarriage I'm sure I will take every little twinge and disappearing symptom of a sure sign of impending doom. And doesn't that just suck?

 

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