Peace of Mind is All I Want

The above quote comes from my new favorite song "Face Down" by the Katie Todd Band (www.katietoddband.com).

Lyrics:

I'm leaving tonight, lights on lights off.
I'm caught in the dark, face down, fall apart.
The answer is clear, crystal clear.
And I know it's hard to hear, but you gotta get out of here.
So won't you please let it be.
And there's only so much you can say.
A broken record but you stay and take some more.
And as you're looking out at your chord you think, well I gotta get out of here.
So won't you please let it be
I'm leaving tonight, lights on lights off.I'm caught in the dark, face down...
Peace of mind is all I want. I wanna make some time for wasting.

The last line in particular really spoke to me as I was making the decision about what to do about my career situation. Have I reached my breaking point? Most definitely.

I've moved on (have I?) and that last line has sort of become the mantra for this new phase of my life (that I'm trying to create). I'm not accustomed to having a lot of free time and not feeling "important" and "needed" at work. That's not to say that I'm not needed here but I don't feel like there are a lot of people depending on me. I feel like just another cog in the wheel and I don't know if I like that feeling. For now, it's awfully nice leaving work at 5 and not stressing all night long about blocking off the freight elevator for the right amount of time and how many floral arrangements were ordered. It is nice to get home and change into PJ's and lounge on the couch until 11:30 PM. Of course my rear end is huge and my shirts don't all button anymore but I'm confident that in the long run I will become more motivated and satisified.